Journal Entry: Sun Feb 15, 2015, 2:33 AM
Let me have a little splurge of words with you here. Things that have been bothering, art-wise particularly, if you don't mind.
Firstly, "breaking out of your comfort zone". I made a promise to myself to improve this year, and one good way of doing that is to stop being so intimidated by what I'm not good at and instead just dive right in and start getting good so that it becomes the new comfort zone, the new 'normal'.
But no matter my determination to do that, I still feel like I'm limiting myself when I draw. I know that I can do better than what I do now, yet I don't. Why is that? It's really impeding on my desire to get better. I hate it. Is there any way to stop it?
Secondly, I have the means to start commissions, I've made this point clear. But the question is, do I? People have expressed interest in buying things from me but I'd feel guilty selling them because I really don't have a lot of confidence in my abilities. You all know that, even writing 'abilities' makes me cringe.
Should I not care? If people are willing to buy my things that should be their responsibility right? What if they don't like the stuff after they've payed me? What if this whole limiting-myself issue affects it? I don't want to give people crap.
Am I just greedy then? Is it greedy to want to sell my stuff? Do I deserve the privilege?
So many questions are circulating my mind and it's driving me mad!
Watching: Bleach, periodically.
Playing: Persona 4 Golden